Have you ever time lined your life? Wow – what an experience.
Start from the last big event…be objective and don’t put little things like ‘Fight with Joe” or details that are not “life upending”. The purpose is for you to see that things come…and go…and come…and go. and you can make it through it all!
I started mine from when we had left the city and moved to our first farm.
2007 July – moved to farm. Two days later – began started taking in refuge animals.
November 10 – got married after 8 years raising seven kids together – bout time 😉
March 2008 – farm arena falls under snow – devastation. Business is destroyed.
2009 – move to temp house – and finally permanent farm three months later.
3 years of renovations ensue – frenetic trip to Costa Rica alone.
2011 – find out mom has lung cancer – let the devastation begin
2 years of hell…with medical/worries/anger/fear/dealing with terrified angry family who can barely stand being in same room with me.
So ok…Work like hell on music – creation of album, focus focus focus, gigs, work, gigs, work, write, gigs, work…
2013 – July – Lucy my friend and teacher dies of ALS. She gave me my garden. I am so grateful.
September 6 – my (best) mom dies. I know – most people don’t get a “best” mom – but this one was kinda special. I was adopted by my grandmother who died when I was 15. – #NotSoSpecial.
2014 – RIP Otis – my beautiful best-friend horse/ranger and daily companion.
RIP – Ranger my cat of 20 years ( a twin)
RIP – Buzz Lightyear the super-goat(another twin)
RIP – Mike’s suicide (didn’t see it coming…)
RIP – Anne suicide (really really didn’t see it coming…) – ouch.
November: KABOOM. Richard my dear friend and producer of my album dies suddenly.
Do you hear the toilet flushing? Those are my hopes and dreams…
RIP Casper – Buzz’s twin – only relief felt at this. He was lonely for his brother and really old.
RIP – Randy – another suicide…why is this happening??
Feb 2015 – surprise ten-day trip to Australia with John – woohoo. Loved it.
May 2015 – Move to Australia – seems like a good idea.
Really?? This all seems so random to me.
Its like living two or three lives in one…Insane. I was supposed to be a lawyer or politician or businessy person or something along those lines. My entire childhood groomed me for this. But the soul is MUCH louder – really you can’t shut it up and there was a musician inside that just wouldn’t let me stop making music. Thank God.
The musician won.
The lawyer in me left town.
The politician committed suicide.
This time line lets me see a few things:
1- Life has WAVES of stuff…there were years without any death or chaos,…then there were years where it was all condensed. This line reminds me that when the “waves” happen – they will pass and turn into something else.
2- You cannot predict a bloody thing.
I have been a daughter/wife/student/mother/teacher/writer/business person/politician/activist/poet/musician/composer/artist/trainer now…
I guess I want to share this in case someone else needs to relate to the “i don’t know where I’m going but I’m pretty sure I am supposed to be going this way” feeling of life…
There was a song I wrote a while back called “Traveling Man” – must be about 16 years now. I have never played it – but the lyrics seem to be randomly popping into my head as i think of all the people who are so important to me and me to them – my tribe of and loved ones –
Wish I was a traveling man looking to find my way
I would tell you all my dreams
in love we’d live each day
But I don’t’ know where I’m going,
please help me get there soon,
Lord I don’t know where I’m going!
But you’ll find me waiting by the moon…
Maybe it will be time to launch that one at our final gigs this weekend.