Once upon a time, you came tumbling from a big grey sky. Everyone thought it was an omen that they couldn’t deny. You tumbled from that big old sky, laden with billions and billions of possibilities all at once. This was exactly when time began.
You could let go then because you had nothing you wished to hang on to. In fact, you didn’t even wish. Propelled downwards to the dark dry earth, you land with a soft acceptance, the land gratefully opening herself to receive your gift. She simply knows that you are what is needed to bring forth the life within her.
Throwing yourself all about, within the dark soil you are carried and gently pried apart until there is nothing left to you but You.
You are taken in hungrily as are your brothers and sisters, by the start of new life. Suddenly you are pushed upwards and onwards by circumstances beyond your control. You burst forth into the stunning light of a day. You want to know this day so much that each day you implore yourself to stretch further and further, knowing in a place that supersedes thought and eradicates pure knowledge that this is the only way to know yourself. Your upturned face proudly follows the trajectory of the sun. You keep pushing until you and thrown upwards and onwards into the flow of all things alive. The sunlight hits you and once again you are nourished. You see that the sun doesn’t need to be anything but itself to accomplish its task.
You turn your face ever so slowly ~ each day from sunrise to sunset beaming back stupendous yellow rayed petals resting on soft green leaves filled with a belly of seed. You wait for the time to be right so that you will be able to feed the things that need feeding.
Soon the days shorten and the nights become heavy with the frozen dew. You feed yourself off the few rays that remain, but their strength has diminished – you feel yourself growing weak or “soft in the middle”, as they say. Your head becomes heavy with all you have seen and you lean forward in the natural way of things that grow old and tired. Here you have learned to stand still and watch the world go by.
Your seeds fall to the ground and soon you are carried piece by piece to beautiful exotic places that you could never have imagined simply as a rain drop or a flower. In one moment you are running through open fields, inviting ecstatic expressions of unbounded freedom to show themselves. Your body cannot help but dance with itself – leaping hedges and stopping to take long drinks in rivers running clear and magnificently. Bird’s chirp in a way that lets you know all is well in the world, and no dangers abound. But sometimes, even birds can be fooled. In the moment you hear the shot you see that the sky is bright with its own promise.
Now you swim up a river bed, soft mossy rocks flitting over your belly as your powerful tail pushes you against the current waiting to meet life and some liberty you will only know when you meet it head on. Scooped up into warmth and travelling now through vessels and arteries, you are spilled for into the belly of another, only to return as a symbol of love.
There is a hand on your head – warm and comforting. Someone approaches and you feel your heart explode with a blissful rebound. You are loyal and loving dedicated and at ease at your master’s feet. Here you learn about service and unconditional love.
The day of your parting was the first such instance of heaviness and resistance to the next thing in your heart of hearts. You did not understand it, so you could only react to it, and with a tear you are sent off to be burnt into the ashes of the next place. This sadness and all the joys before are what sustain you from a place deep inside.
One part of you is dropped in a far away village, and in the summer of that year, the people find that accidentally nature has gifted them with the sweetest of all beauties. You are named after that which nourished you. If only they knew you were just a rain drop come so far. They harvest your seed until the full moon sustains you through the seasons.
You feed and make beautiful until you are pulled apart and at the last moment – you find yourself in the heart of a child.
The days pass deliciously slowly, as you dance your mighty dances in oceanic puddles of rain drops and possibilities surrounding your feet and celebrating the gathering all around.
You dance and play with others, laughter intertwining in the forest branches making them reach higher.
You live and learn and play and dance
And then you cry, you long and you moan – once you realize that you have forgotten where you came from.
And now that you have fully forgotten, you are compelled to remember yourself as a raindrop.
So surely I must tell you that this is best done while you dance across the shadows of the moon imagining the next grey cloud to pass.